MY COMMITMENT

 

What is your commitment? 

What is your inner vow? 

For which aspect of your soul would you give your life rather than to betray it?

 

Here is mine:

 

I will always keep my heart open.

I will always stay vulnerable. 

I will always allow my heart to spread and receive love. 

 

No matter how many people hurt me, no matter how many knives I have to pull out of my heart, no matter how often I have to recover after an emotional letdown, no matter how many protective walls around my heart, that I build up in shock, I have to tear down again.

I will tear them down.

 

Each attack only makes me stronger, leading me to greater self-love and love.

Till one day, my intuition and my strong boundaries are so well developed through all this trial and error, that my heart feels safe with me and I feel safe with my heart.

 

If someone would force me to choose: “You can now decide to finally close your heart, admit that it is too dangerous to trust and to be vulnerable; otherwise I will kill you.”

I would answer: “Then kill me.”

 

I would prefer this one last second of being authentic and openhearted, rather than living maybe forty years in a state of separation and dullness, being buried alive.

No one will ever be able to close my heart.

No one. 

 

That's why I am here.

That's what I can teach you.

That's the most precious gift I have to offer you.

 

What is your gift?

What is your commitment?

What can you teach me?

 

(Verena, RWYA)