Be prepared. The minute you decide to be yourself, to heal, to allow your true feelings, to live your dreams instead of trying to satisfy the expectations of others, it will be there: BULLSHIT.
It will come out of the mouths of family members, so-called friends, acquaintances, colleagues, therapists, doctors, pharmacists, pseudo-spiritual teachers and people who don’t even play any role in your life but who feel provoked by your decision. They sense it in your presence, and it shows them what they lack.
In our society, it is absolutely normal to repress our feelings. It is standard to play roles and put on masks. The duties of an average life make it nearly impossible to get off the hamster wheel. We can easily hide behind our busyness and all the distractions. There seems to be no time and space to pause for a moment and sense into our body and heart. But that’s a lie on a deeper level.
If we decide to live authentically and in resonance with our soul, to allow our vulnerability and face our wounds, things will magically start to change and shift; and there will be more and more time and space. The right people will enter into our lives: our tribe. The universe wants us to be ourselves and to love ourselves; it wants us to feel, to heal and to grow.
Everything else is BULLSHIT.
But those who have - regardless of the reason - lost the contact with their own souls and with the vulnerability and magnificence of their own hearts in this incarnation, will try everything to stop you and to convince you that fear is a safer since more realistic and calculable principle than love.
Every single time you believe them and follow their message, it will throw you back on your path.
That’s why I am writing this text. I have been thrown back thousands of times because I felt unsure and searched for validation and support where only BULLSHIT was offered. It’s an inevitable and sometimes even necessary part of every journey, but I want to be the voice of love and confirmation who applauds you for your courage to be yourself and allow your true feelings.
I want to strengthen your decision and offer some clarity about what’s going on.
You wouldn’t believe how much BULLSHIT I had to and still have to hear on my own journey, how many lies I had to bear, and how much subtle but also open derision and resentment I had to endure, only because I decided to be myself.
It took me many years to really trust my intuition, my gut feeling, when I listen to what someone tells me or read what someone writes.
If it isn’t in resonance with my soul and my truth, it simply doesn’t feel good and right. There is an underlying fear in the message of this person and, often, even a really negative energy. The term “Energy Vampire“ is no joke. It’s reality, and you have to protect yourself from them categorically. They don’t want your best. You shouldn’t take this personally; it has absolutely nothing to do with you. They just want you to be like them, fit in, adapt, repress your feelings, and at the same time, they want to suck some of your precious awakening vitality.
Deep down inside, they are utterly terrified of being confronted with their unconsciousness, emptiness, and darkness.
However, their diversion can be wrapped in a quite reasonable and seductive packaging.
They will try to convince you that all this suffering you go through, all the darkness you dwell in frequently since you stopped repressing, isn’t really necessary and that there is an easier way. This can be anything, from taking the right pills, changing your mindset, focusing on the positive things in your life, going to hundreds of doctors to finally find out a physical reason for your pain (which usually will never be found), treating yourself with some nice little drugs and distractions, or simply finally “leaving the past behind you and pulling yourself together."
All this is complete BULLSHIT.
There are also better suggestions, which can, of course, help. But they can never be a substitute for the real work of going through the transformational fire of our real emotions. For example, it’s great to meditate, repeat affirmations, practice yoga, tap meridians, go for barefoot walks, start juicing and detoxing, receive some Reiki-Energy, get a wellness-massage and so on and so forth.
But be careful: as soon as someone tells you that one of these things can be “THE“ salvation from all of your suffering, then even this is complete BULLSHIT.
It creates the illusion that you simply didn’t get it yet but that there is an easy and comfortable way.
But this is not true. Self-discovery and self-realization are always challenging, difficult, and painful. Anyone who says something else hasn’t gone the whole way and is lying to himself. The blah-blah messages, especially of the pseudo-spiritual community, seem to stem from an endless ocean of fake-gentleness, fake-positivity, fake-mindfulness, fake-enlightenment, fake-overcoming of the demonized ego, and other BULLSHIT, only to avoid the truth of what is.
Some years ago, I wouldn’t have been confident enough to say something like that, but now I am. And that’s what it’s all about: be yourself, love yourself, trust in the self-regulating forces of your body and soul, allow your feelings, open your heart, be honest, live your truth and go on, through the darkness, through the suffering and the pain, even if it seems that it will never end.
That’s BULLSHIT: It WILL end. I promise you. You will come out of this fire stronger and wiser and more compassionate and loving than ever. You will still be on your never-ending journey, but it will be a more peaceful one, and you will have the natural longing to serve others with what you have learned by real experience. You will spread the love that you have found in your heart beneath all the layers of repressed pain.
Don’t believe the BULLSHIT. Don’t give up.
You are on the right track.